Unfortunately, i am bringing really bad news.



Prashant, my fiance is in the hospital and he is not recovering at all. Doctors are not able to figure out what he is going through. I know how is he feeling and i cant describe it. Its a humble request to each and every friend of his and mine to pray for him. I have talked with his friend and she said that he is not recovering at all. He is not reacting, he is not opening his eyes and he is breathing too strong and rapidly. And now his bleeding from his mouth. I am not good, i am not sleeping, i am not eating, i am crying all the time. I am managing to be strong for us two. Please pray for his life and have faith and belief cuz thats all we can do for now. his condition is too serious. I will be updating this journal. And please dont go and send messages on his page cuz he is not available, leave a message on this journal. Thank you... Isabell Sharma

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He is worse. He said something and his heart beats have gone down but still he is breathing heavily. His mouth is still bleeding a lot. There is a big fight inside of him. I am crying all the time and my condition got worse too.


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Prashant was DEAD for 4 hours but something unexplainable happened and he is back, he is fine now, he is living and recovering. His heart beats and breathing are normal. Doctors are shocked. I knew what happened, i brought him back. I am crying and smiling at the same time. You dont know how i felt when i heard that he is no more, i cant explain how i felt.
The important thing is that he is fineeeeeeeeeeeeee






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It is time for me to set some rules here and most of them are for MALES.




GUYS, DO NOT CALL ME HUN, HONEY, THINGS IN THAT MANNER CUZ I DON FEEL GOOD WHEN YOU CALL ME LIKE THAT

DO NOT SEND ME INAPROPRIATE EMOTES

DO NOT SEND ME NOTES CUZ I WONT REPLY ON THEM

RESPECT ME FOR THAT... THANK YOU...

AND STAY IN YOUR FUCKING LIMITS


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OH YEA, THESE RULES ARE NOT APPLIED ON ~Prashant87 CUZ HE IS EVERYTHING TO ME, I MADE A HUGE MISTAKE AND I DO NOT FEEL GOOD AT ALL


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PLUS YOU ALL NEED TO KNOW (AND I AM SURE THAT YOU KNOW THIS ALREADY) THAT ALL MY WORK IS FIRST DEDICATED TO PRASHANT AND AFTER THAT EVERYBODY ELSE CUZ HE IS MY INSPIRATION FOR MY WORK AND I DON KNOW WHERE I WOULD BE IF HE IS NOT WITH ME


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I am dedicating this song to ~Prashant87 , my only one




I lie here paraletic inside this soul
screaming for you 'til my throat is numb
I wanna break out
I need a way out
I don’t believe that it’s gotta be this way
The worst is the waiting
In this womb I’m suffocating

Feel your presence filling up my lungs with oxygen
I take you in
I’ve died

Rebirthing now
I wanna live for love wanna live for you and me
Breathe for the first time now
I come alive somehow
Rebirthing now
I wanna live my life wanna give you everything
Breathe for the first time now
I come alive somehow

Right now
Right now

I lie here lifeless in this cocoon
Shedding my skin cause I’m ready to
I wanna break out
I found a way out
I don’t believe that it’s gotta be this way
The worst is the waiting
In this womb I’m suffocating

Feel your presence filling up my lungs with oxygen
I take you in
I’ve died

Rebirthing now
I wanna live for love wanna live for you and me
Breathe for the first time now
I come alive somehow
Rebirthing now
I wanna live my life wanna give you everything
Breathe for the first time now
I come alive somehow

Tell me when I’m gonna live again
Tell me when I’m gonna breathe you in
Tell me when I’m gonna feel inside
Tell me when I’m gonna feel alive

Tell me when I’m gonna live again
Tell me when this fear will end
Tell me when I’m gonna feel inside
Tell me when I’ll feel alive

Rebirthing now
I wanna live for love wanna live for you and me
Breathe for the first time now
I come alive somehow
Rebirthing now
I wanna live my life wanna give you everything
Breathe for the first time now
I come alive somehow

Right now
I come alive somehow
Right now
I come alive somehow





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My fiancé,my baby boy
~Prashant87

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I am dedicating this song to ~Prashant87 , my only one


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Celldweller - Tragedy


Here I lie in a lost and lonely part of town...
Held in time In a world of tears I slowly drown...
Goin' home and I just can't make it all alone
I really should be holding you holding you
Loving you loving you

Tragedy!
When the feeling's gone and you can't go on
It's tragedy!
When the morning cries and you don't know why
It's hard to bear
With no-one to love you you're goin' nowhere
Tragedy!
When you lose control and you got no soul
It's tragedy!
When the morning cries and you don't know why
It's hard to bear
With no-one beside you you're goin' nowhere

Night and day there's a burning down inside of me
Burning love with a yearning that won't let me be
Down I go and I just can't take it all alone
I really should be holding you holding you
Loving you loving you

Tragedy!
When the feeling's gone and you can't go on
It's tragedy!
When the morning cries and you don't know why
It's hard to bear
With no-one to love you you're goin' nowhere
Tragedy!
When you lose control and you got no soul
It's tragedy!
When the morning cries and you don't know why
It's hard to bear
With no-one beside you you're goin' nowhere

Holdin' you... Lovin' you... Lovin' you...
Tragedy!
When the feeling's gone and you can't go on
It's tragedy!
When the morning cries and you don't know why
It's hard to bear
With no-one to love you you're goin' nowhere
Tragedy!
When you lose control and you got no soul
It's tragedy!
When the morning cries and you don't know why
It's hard to bear
With no-one beside you you're goin' nowhere
Let! Me! Hold! You!




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P.S. Anyone who is playing Diablo II. on Battle.Net should join me, my char's name is Hayden_III And my account is DarkAssassin710 See you there

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Conjuring a Phoenix ------- Finished at last , check it here --> [link]

PLUS i got a feature immediately after i've uploaded it, thanks to *Nashc92 here ---> [link]

My Name Is Alex...Mercer

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Work in progress -
Amazon ----- I must finish it first and then i'll upload it
A Tribute To The Devil ----- Still working on it

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My fiancé,my baby boy
~Prashant87

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>Listen, i am really pissed off now... Any person who insulted Prashant, i command you to apologize to him... I mean, how would you feel if someone insult the person who means your whole life to you? You would kill that person, right?... Think before you write, okay? Now it's better for you to apologize or you will regret it... I made a huge mistake by writing that journal, i shouldn't have done it and cuz of that i am having problems and i wanna kill myself cuz of that. Please apologize to him... And thanks to these people who insulted him i am in deep shit... Really thank you all... I know that you wanted to show me some support but you've made a huge mistake... And don't think about sending a notes to me or to him, apologize through this journal, it is better for you to do that

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P.S. Anyone who is playing Diablo II. on Battle.Net should join me, my char's name is Hayden_III And my account is DarkAssassin710 See you there

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Conjuring a Phoenix ------- Finished at last , check it here --> [link]

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My Name Is Alex...Mercer

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Work in progress -
Amazon ----- I must finish it first and then i'll upload it
A Tribute To The Devil ----- Still working on it

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I am totally in love for this song AAAAARRRGHHHHHHH, maybe the best evil disco (trance metal) song EVER...
Must check it... NAO
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And here are the lyrics:


Celldweller - The Last Firstborn



oh man, I can't believe that you did what they said
you did and to this day I've still gotta say that in
my mind I question it I wish I knew what you had
meant before you went and left me wondering to
just an echo of your voice
'listen...listen…listen…listen'

now I wait to take my turn to bleed like a kid playing
with a razorblade and wonder if I have the
balls at all or am I gonna be afraid where are
you? what do you think? cuz I’m not sure when
knocking at death's door if I will be welcome in
or be left alone outside

I hear the sound of a heart
from the shadow in the dark
waiting for the poison to hit its mark
(listen--my son)

I see the darkness
surround the shape on the ground the
killer straight up and a body face
down (firstborn-last one)

I hear the
din of the screams, sorrow in streams
the smell of farewell and gasoline
(listen--my son)

I see a heart set free
and my legacy hear a voice from a
shadow that is beckoning me
(firstborn-last one)

I guess there comes a point when you
think to yourself "this isn't worth it, it
isn't worth it" and now I feel what you felt, and now I feel what you felt inside brother
and now I feel what you felt
this isn't worth it, it isn't worth it

I hear the sound of a heart
from the shadow in the dark
waiting for the poison to hit its mark
(listen--my son)

I see the darkness
surround the shape on the ground the
killer straight up and a body face
down (firstborn-last one)

I hear the
din of the screams, sorrow in streams
the smell of farewell and gasoline
(listen--my son)

I see a heart set free
and my legacy hear a voice from a
shadow that is beckoning me
(firstborn-last one--listen)


I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't end this way.
I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't end this way.
I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't end this way.
I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't end this way.
I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't end this way.
I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't end this way.

live a life in hell through a mortal shell asphyxiating
smell for a crime lifetime imagination
locked in a cell and to the other
firstborn, I see the same scene that
must play over in your mind and now
how much more I'm sure it's fucked with
your head just like it's fucked up mine.
"listen my son-firstborn last one"
the message you sent out to me-I can not
change what's meant to be
the message you sent out to me-I can not
change what's meant to be

what am I supposed to do now?

I hear the sound of a heart
from the shadow in the dark
waiting for the poison to hit its mark
[hit its mark hit its mark]

I see the darkness
surround the shape on the ground the
killer straight up and a body face
down
body face down body face down

I hear the
din of the screams, sorrow in streams
the smell of farewell and gasoline
(listen)

I see a heart set free
and my legacy hear a voice from a
shadow that is beckoning me
(my son)

I hear the sound of a heart
from the shadow in the dark
waiting for the poison to hit its mark
(listen--my son)

I see the darkness
surround the shape on the ground the
killer straight up and a body face down
(firstborn-last one)

I hear the
din of the screams, sorrow in streams
the smell of farewell and gasoline
(listen--my son)

I see a heart set free
and my legacy hear a voice from a
shadow that is beckoning me
(firstborn-last one)

firstborn
You are the last one--firstborn




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My fiancé,my baby boy
~Prashant87

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Hello people, what's new, hope you are all okay?
I am pretty busy with my school atm and with studies but i am catching up with dA and my IMs
I will upload more art here soon Oh yea, on Jun. 7 will be my 1. anniversary of the 1. year on dA YAY


P.S. Anyone who is playing Diablo II. on Battle.Net should join me, my char's name is Hayden_III And my account is DarkAssassin710 See you there

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Conjuring a Phoenix ------- Finished at last , check it here --> [link]

PLUS i got a feature immediately after i've uploaded it, thanks to *Nashc92 here ---> [link]

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Work in progress -
My name is Alex...Mercer ----- I must finish it first and then i'll upload it
A Tribute To The Devil ----- Still working on it

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I am totally in love for this song AAAAARRRGHHHHHHH, maybe the best evil disco (trance metal) song EVER...
Must check it... NAO
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And here are the lyrics:


Celldweller - The Last Firstborn



oh man, I can't believe that you did what they said
you did and to this day I've still gotta say that in
my mind I question it I wish I knew what you had
meant before you went and left me wondering to
just an echo of your voice
'listen...listen…listen…listen'

now I wait to take my turn to bleed like a kid playing
with a razorblade and wonder if I have the
balls at all or am I gonna be afraid where are
you? what do you think? cuz I’m not sure when
knocking at death's door if I will be welcome in
or be left alone outside

I hear the sound of a heart
from the shadow in the dark
waiting for the poison to hit its mark
(listen--my son)

I see the darkness
surround the shape on the ground the
killer straight up and a body face
down (firstborn-last one)

I hear the
din of the screams, sorrow in streams
the smell of farewell and gasoline
(listen--my son)

I see a heart set free
and my legacy hear a voice from a
shadow that is beckoning me
(firstborn-last one)

I guess there comes a point when you
think to yourself "this isn't worth it, it
isn't worth it" and now I feel what you felt, and now I feel what you felt inside brother
and now I feel what you felt
this isn't worth it, it isn't worth it

I hear the sound of a heart
from the shadow in the dark
waiting for the poison to hit its mark
(listen--my son)

I see the darkness
surround the shape on the ground the
killer straight up and a body face
down (firstborn-last one)

I hear the
din of the screams, sorrow in streams
the smell of farewell and gasoline
(listen--my son)

I see a heart set free
and my legacy hear a voice from a
shadow that is beckoning me
(firstborn-last one--listen)


I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't end this way.
I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't end this way.
I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't end this way.
I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't end this way.
I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't end this way.
I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't, I wish it didn't end this way.

live a life in hell through a mortal shell asphyxiating
smell for a crime lifetime imagination
locked in a cell and to the other
firstborn, I see the same scene that
must play over in your mind and now
how much more I'm sure it's fucked with
your head just like it's fucked up mine.
"listen my son-firstborn last one"
the message you sent out to me-I can not
change what's meant to be
the message you sent out to me-I can not
change what's meant to be

what am I supposed to do now?

I hear the sound of a heart
from the shadow in the dark
waiting for the poison to hit its mark
[hit its mark hit its mark]

I see the darkness
surround the shape on the ground the
killer straight up and a body face
down
body face down body face down

I hear the
din of the screams, sorrow in streams
the smell of farewell and gasoline
(listen)

I see a heart set free
and my legacy hear a voice from a
shadow that is beckoning me
(my son)

I hear the sound of a heart
from the shadow in the dark
waiting for the poison to hit its mark
(listen--my son)

I see the darkness
surround the shape on the ground the
killer straight up and a body face down
(firstborn-last one)

I hear the
din of the screams, sorrow in streams
the smell of farewell and gasoline
(listen--my son)

I see a heart set free
and my legacy hear a voice from a
shadow that is beckoning me
(firstborn-last one)

firstborn
You are the last one--firstborn




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My fiancé,my baby boy
~Prashant87

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I really have no more reasons for fight to survive cuz:

My mom laughed at me when she saw my new scars today when i cutted myself again and she refused to take me to the hospital

and

Meri jaan is still ignoring me... Only he can save me from this hell but it seems that he don't want to...


I am feeling too bad, my scars are still bleeding and before 5min, i've puked... Great...



I am dedicating this song to my jaan, Prashant................

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Lyrics in Hindi

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Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho

Aaja Aaja Jind Shamiyane Ke Tale

Aaja Jariwale Nile Aasman Ke Tale

Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho

Jai Ho.., Jai Ho.., Jai Ho.., Jai Ho..

Ratti Ratti Sachi Maine Jaan Gavayi Hai

Nach Nach Koylo Pe Raat Bitayi Hai

Akhiyon Ki Neend Maine Phoonko Se Uda Di

Neele Tare Se Maine Ungli Jalayi Hai

Aaja Aaja Jind Shamiyane Ke Tale

Aaja Jariwale Nile Aasman Ke Tale

Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho

Jai Ho.., Jai Ho.., Jai Ho.., Jai Ho..

Chakh Le, Ha Chakh Le, Ye Raat Shahad Hai.. Chakh Le

Rakh Le, Ha Dil Hai, Dil Aakhri Had Hai.. Rakh Le

Kala Kala Kajal Tera Koi Kala Jadoo Hai Na

Kala Kala Kajal Tera Koi Kala Jadoo Hai Na

Aaja Aaja Jind Shamiyane Ke Tale

Aaja Jariwale Nile Aasman Ke Tale, Jai Ho, Jai Ho

Jai Ho.., Jai Ho.., Jai Ho.., Jai Ho..

Kab Se, Ha Kab Se Tu Lab Pe Ruki Hai.. Kab De

Kab De, Ha Kab De Ab Aankh Jhuki Hai.. Kab De

Aisi Aisi Roshan Aankhe Roshan Dono Bhi Hai Hai Kya

Aaja Aaja Jind Shamiyane Ke Tale

Aaja Jariwale Nile Aasman Ke Tale, Jai Ho, Jai Ho

Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho

Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho

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Lyrics (translation)

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Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee

Come come below the decorated tent of life

Come below blue sky decorated with ‘jari’ threads

Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee

Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee

Slowly Slowly Really I lost my life

Spent my nights dancing on coal

I blew the sleep in my eyes with air from my mouth

I burned my finger with blue star

Come come below the decorated tent of life

Come below blue sky decorated with ‘jari’ threads

Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee

Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee

Taste it, yes taste it, this night is honey, taste it

Keep it, yes this is heart, heart is last limit.. Keep it

(your) Black Black eyeliner - is it your black magic?

(your) Black Black eyeliner - is it your black magic?

Come come below the decorated tent of life

Come below blue sky decorated with ‘jari’ threads

Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee

Since when, yes since when, (your) eyes are closed.. since when

Since when, yes since when, you have stopped at my lips.. since when

Like this, Like this, lightening eyes, making both lightened, yes, yes, what?

Come come below the decorated tent of life

Come below blue sky decorated with ‘jari’ threads

Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee
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I don't know what have i done wrong to him, i have only him, even my mom does not care for me as much he does... And now all of sudden he is ignoring me and i have become a stranger... He knows that i can't stand that but still he is ignoring me... My arm is deformed cuz of scars and wounds i made and I am ready to kill myself and he knows that very well... He is not answering on my messages and calls... I am fucking hurted, i was in hospital and nothing... I am lost and dead... I will seriousl kill myself cuz i can't survive without him...Don't take me as some freak or a joke cuz i am serious as much i can be... Tc



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And i wanna thank you for all the comments'n'favs and i wanna reply to all of them but i recenty came from hospital and i am weak so i am thanking you via this journal...


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My fiancé,my baby boy
~Prashant87

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