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Meri jaan

Thu May 28, 2009, 11:01 AM
  • Mood: Hurt
  • Listening to: Globus - Preliator
  • Reading: Sms of my jaan
  • Watching: Photo of my jaan
  • Drinking: My blood
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I don't know what have i done wrong to him, i have only him, even my mom does not care for me as much he does... And now all of sudden he is ignoring me and i have become a stranger... He knows that i can't stand that but still he is ignoring me... My arm is deformed cuz of scars and wounds i made and I am ready to kill myself and he knows that very well... He is not answering on my messages and calls... I am fucking hurted, i was in hospital and nothing... I am lost and dead... I will seriousl kill myself cuz i can't survive without him...Don't take me as some freak or a joke cuz i am serious as much i can be... Tc



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And i wanna thank you for all the comments'n'favs and i wanna reply to all of them but i recenty came from hospital and i am weak so i am thanking you via this journal...


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Yes, my life is hell now... Why?
Well, when you feel betrayed and ignored from the person who means everything to you, your life comes to an end. And that happened to me... Some of you know who is that person, and some of you don't. I ended up in hospital and i got not even one message from him, yea i am hurted, i am fucking hurted but hell wit that. Maybe that is my destiny or?... The thing is that my life came to an end


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Orchard Of Mines



Don't taint this ground with the color of the past
Are the sounds in bloom with you?
Cause you feel like an orchard of mines
Just take one step at a time

And you seem to break like time
So fragile on the inside, you climb these grapevines
Would you look now unto the pit of me on the ground
And you wander through these to climb these grapevines...

I'll say it to be proud, won't have my life turn upside down
Says the man with some, with some gold forged plan
Of life so incomplete, like weights strapped around my feet
Tread careful one step at a time

And you seem to break like time
So fragile on the inside, you climb these grapevines
Would you look now unto the pit of me on the ground
And you wander through these to climb these grapevines...

To know, to feel, to play me once again
Do you denote from what we feel
Do yu not know, i see you play the game
Do you denote...

La flama niposa, la ombra dispare
La noce immortale, la voce murmure

To know, to feel, to play me once again
Do you denote...
Do you not know, i see you play the game
Denote...
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Please, i would appreciate if you fav this piece... [link]
Thank you :-)

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..://Prashant & Isabell Sharma\\:.. :rose::blackrose:

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My fiancé,my baby boy
~Prashant87

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:icon4everbroken:
well first thing you need to do is not kill your self i just got of the hospital for that and trust me its not worth it i made an attmept two years ago and now my brain has lil convulsive twitchs and its fuckin annoying trust me suicdie is just going to make things worse second find a better exscape me mine is writng on here and listing to music it use to be hurting myself did nothing but relive it for a moment then make it worse and you can survive without him you done it before you can do it again if your strong enough to kill yourself and stay alive your strong enough to keep pushing forward and im sure youll be mad at me for saying this but if this guy is treating you like this i dont see why youd want him in your life i wouldent keep someone in my life if they treated me like shit no matter how much hurt its gotta hurt worse before it gets better yea know just chin up and keepin pushin yourself forward and know i am here if you need a someone to talk to your not alone
:icongotosumeet:
I have something for you. It may be helpful to you.... After that I don't want to say anything to you. You are grownup, you have your own decisions. Please read this word by word.........
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There was once a lonely girl who longed desperately for love. One day while she was walking in the woods she found two starving song birds. She took them home and put them in a small gilded cage. She nurtured them with love and the birds grew strong. Every morning they greeted her with a marvelous song. The girl felt great love for the birds. She wanted their singing to last forever.

One day the girl left the door to the cage open. The larger and stronger of the two birds flew from the cage. The girl watched anxiously as he circled high above her. She was so frightened that he would fly away and she would never see him again that as he flew close, she grasped at him wildly. She caught him in her fist. She clutched him tightly within her hand. Her heart gladdened at her success in capturing him. Suddenly she felt the bird go limp. She opened her hand stared in horror at the dead bird. Her desperate clutching love had killed him.

She noticed the other bird teetering on the edge of the cage. She could feel his great need for freedom. His need to soar into the clear, blue sky. She lifted him from the cage and tossed him softly into the air. The bird circled once, twice, three times. The girl watched delighted at the bird's enjoyment. Her heart was no longer concerned with her loss.

She wanted the bird to be happy. Suddenly the bird flew closer and landed softly on her shoulder. It sang the sweetest melody, she had ever heard.

The fastest way to lose love is to hold on too tight, the best way to keep love is to give it -- WINGS!

I believe in giving WINGS to my relations, that’s why I had few…. Those, who were not mine, they are on their own flight and I am on my own……

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Love lost is still love. It takes a different form, that’s all. But when Lost Love's pain weaken, another heightens. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it. Life has to end. Love doesn’t.
:iconmadwolfie:
hey girlie... having only bits & pieces of the puzzle, I know not the whole picture...

*hugs* whatever the case, you have to start to learn to live for yourself...

Whatever will be, will be and treasure those moments which will always be there... life goes on

c'est la vie my dear... *hugs*
:icondarkassassin710:
No, i am not mad on you, it's your thought. It's easy for you to say that but we mean everything to each other and we are not ready to give up. Maybe he hurt me from time to time but we humans are meant to be hurted, even by the person you love the most

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My pati, we will be together till eternity, we will never surrender my baby boy. MUAH Prashant & Isabell Sharma
Love you without limits

Please i need support,fav it [link]
:icon4everbroken:
of course i know its easier said then done i had to give up somone i loved near and dear to me 5 years ago and i wasent then and not now ready to give them up but i really had zero choice no matter cause the dagage had been already done

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