I really have no more reasons for fight to survive cuz:

My mom laughed at me when she saw my new scars today when i cutted myself again and she refused to take me to the hospital

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Meri jaan is still ignoring me... Only he can save me from this hell but it seems that he don't want to...


I am feeling too bad, my scars are still bleeding and before 5min, i've puked... Great...



I am dedicating this song to my jaan, Prashant................

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Lyrics in Hindi

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Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho

Aaja Aaja Jind Shamiyane Ke Tale

Aaja Jariwale Nile Aasman Ke Tale

Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho

Jai Ho.., Jai Ho.., Jai Ho.., Jai Ho..

Ratti Ratti Sachi Maine Jaan Gavayi Hai

Nach Nach Koylo Pe Raat Bitayi Hai

Akhiyon Ki Neend Maine Phoonko Se Uda Di

Neele Tare Se Maine Ungli Jalayi Hai

Aaja Aaja Jind Shamiyane Ke Tale

Aaja Jariwale Nile Aasman Ke Tale

Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho

Jai Ho.., Jai Ho.., Jai Ho.., Jai Ho..

Chakh Le, Ha Chakh Le, Ye Raat Shahad Hai.. Chakh Le

Rakh Le, Ha Dil Hai, Dil Aakhri Had Hai.. Rakh Le

Kala Kala Kajal Tera Koi Kala Jadoo Hai Na

Kala Kala Kajal Tera Koi Kala Jadoo Hai Na

Aaja Aaja Jind Shamiyane Ke Tale

Aaja Jariwale Nile Aasman Ke Tale, Jai Ho, Jai Ho

Jai Ho.., Jai Ho.., Jai Ho.., Jai Ho..

Kab Se, Ha Kab Se Tu Lab Pe Ruki Hai.. Kab De

Kab De, Ha Kab De Ab Aankh Jhuki Hai.. Kab De

Aisi Aisi Roshan Aankhe Roshan Dono Bhi Hai Hai Kya

Aaja Aaja Jind Shamiyane Ke Tale

Aaja Jariwale Nile Aasman Ke Tale, Jai Ho, Jai Ho

Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho

Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho, Jai Ho

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Lyrics (translation)

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Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee

Come come below the decorated tent of life

Come below blue sky decorated with ‘jari’ threads

Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee

Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee

Slowly Slowly Really I lost my life

Spent my nights dancing on coal

I blew the sleep in my eyes with air from my mouth

I burned my finger with blue star

Come come below the decorated tent of life

Come below blue sky decorated with ‘jari’ threads

Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee

Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee

Taste it, yes taste it, this night is honey, taste it

Keep it, yes this is heart, heart is last limit.. Keep it

(your) Black Black eyeliner - is it your black magic?

(your) Black Black eyeliner - is it your black magic?

Come come below the decorated tent of life

Come below blue sky decorated with ‘jari’ threads

Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee

Since when, yes since when, (your) eyes are closed.. since when

Since when, yes since when, you have stopped at my lips.. since when

Like this, Like this, lightening eyes, making both lightened, yes, yes, what?

Come come below the decorated tent of life

Come below blue sky decorated with ‘jari’ threads

Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee, Victory to thee
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I don't know what have i done wrong to him, i have only him, even my mom does not care for me as much he does... And now all of sudden he is ignoring me and i have become a stranger... He knows that i can't stand that but still he is ignoring me... My arm is deformed cuz of scars and wounds i made and I am ready to kill myself and he knows that very well... He is not answering on my messages and calls... I am fucking hurted, i was in hospital and nothing... I am lost and dead... I will seriousl kill myself cuz i can't survive without him...Don't take me as some freak or a joke cuz i am serious as much i can be... Tc



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And i wanna thank you for all the comments'n'favs and i wanna reply to all of them but i recenty came from hospital and i am weak so i am thanking you via this journal...


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My fiancé,my baby boy
~Prashant87

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